In this fog it is hard to see, even though, I thought I knew what was there, I wonder did I get lost somewhere? Did I miss something? a turn, the path, the call? What? Where When and the ultimate Why?
So I reflect.
Out of a clear blue sky lightning strikes: So hard to understand how we got here, my young daughter fighting a serious illness that has changed SO much of her life: Her plans, her goals that she has st rived to reach, her body, her mind and her everyday joy and zest for life.
Where did this come from? who can medically help her/us find answers that we cry out for.
So I pinch myself and wonder: am I in a dream of a TV show "House" episode. I wonder who is the technical adviser to this show? It has to be a very smart doctor. Where do I find her/him?
After one of our trips home after a hospital stay (in the beginning), I was back at work, we had gone into Borders with the people I serve, I walked in directly to a table of books. I was taken, as if it was calling me to (one) book on the table as if it were the only one there. It's title was/is "Every Patient Has a Story" I picked it up, looked quisitivly at it, turned it over and read the description on the back...TO MY SURPRISE...the author is........YES........the technical adviser to the TV show "House". I am not kidding one bit \0/ this is God (I thought to my self) as I leaped inside and could not contain my excitement :) I thought "there is something to this, what is it Lord? So, yes, I purchased the book. The book is about how doctors come to diognosis' of illnesses and how they come to narrow them down by squinting every detail of the person and the body that has been attacked. OK so if your wondering (as I am) has this book helped? It hasn't really as far as answers, But it let me know that God is here with us in this and that He is guiding the way just as He guided me to this book, that caused me to leap with hope and a knowing that He is in control.
In this fog it IS hard to see...however, I know He knows the way, though I may not see clear, He has her in His hands. He is driving us in this fog: and one day; I know the sun will come out; a breeze will blow and we will find ourselves clearly in His way (path).
This is Life as we know it.
This is Life as we struggle
This is life that is being directed by the Creator of the universe.
All things work for the GOOD of those who love the Lord and are CALLED according to His purpose.
This is LIfE as we trust
In YOU, FATHER SON HOLY SPIRIT.
PS: A human journey, a spiritual path.
Love in Him,
Patty
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